A few weeks ago I ran out of heating oil on a very cold day. I'm talking single digit cold. My fiance shuffled around our apartment in a hoodie, wearing wool socks with his flip-flops. I stayed in bed, not just because it was the warmest spot in the house, but also because it was far away from the kitchen sink, chock-full of dirty dishes and a bit ripe-smelling to boot.
I felt rotten, suffocated by the weight of my shortcomings: Dust-bunnies the size of tumbleweed in every corner; nary a clean pot in which to cook; a broken tail-light on the car.
I could go on. The list is long. Like a roll of toilet paper. Jumbo size.
The urge to dwell on these imperfections is strong. Doing so is not just counterproductive. It's damaging. It's paralyzing. The wheels of progress freeze solid.
Progress. It's such a nice word. Compare it to perfection.
Really. Say them both aloud. Progress. Perfection.
Progress expands. The essess at the end can go on forever.
Perfection is pinched. It's word-wings clipped.
Could it be any clearer which is better?
I'm tired of perfection screwing up my progress, and I hope you are too.
Oh, and about that weekend without heat? The memory of my fiance sporting a hoodie and rocking wool socks with flip flops is one of this snowy winter's brightest spots yet.
Monday, February 15, 2010
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"the kitchen sink, chock-full of dirty dishes and a bit ripe-smelling"
ReplyDeleteWow, can I identify with not only this statement but the whole premise of your blog. Best of luck. I'm sure to be inspired by your effort. Maybe we can encourage each other, since I suffer from the same stupid affliction.
Congrats on the new blog. I love your writing style!
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you for the mental nudge. I'm falling into the perfection trap again. Nothing I am creating tonight is working out. I feel like throwing everything away and quitting. Maybe I'll see what progress might feel like. Or maybe I'll go to bed early and try again tomorrow.
I'm smiling. The fact that you are blogging is a brightspot for me.
ReplyDeleteYEAH!! The first post is the hardest. Good job and good luck :-)
ReplyDeleteYou guys are awesome. All four of you!!!
ReplyDeleteI jump off Twitter for a few days (OK, weeks) and you start a blog on me. Good for you. I'll enjoy getting to know my friend better through her writerly self.
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